this is where I am now, truly lost and screwed.

part of me want to go ahead and take a chance while the other part of me is afraid to take that step out.
I know it will lead to no where so why even bother.

sigh.
what should I do.

I'm not that exactly kind of person that leave everything up to fate, I guess I'm that type of person that will take chances to achieve what I want.
"fight against fate"
however, this time round I'm doubt that I should even try.
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good afternoon~~

life has been pretty much boring for me since I'm jobless.
I should have taken a more longer lasting job instead of working for a few weeks then jump to another place and so on.

bleh.
not that looking forward to school because. . I think all those finance and econs stuff will be a major headache.

Till then Xx